5sn1 gathering

i feel like drinking it now

whatever that was passed,it 's passed already..
gathering was supposed to be happy ,but ended up with emo+ing.
I miss my friends,i hoped can chat with them till dawn till forever..
But,it didn't last longer..my small little dream,was burst at that moment..
it was changed to a nightmare.
i never have a chance to tell all of U about what was happened to me during this year..
all of U also never give me a chance to continue my talk..
I didn't blame anyone,anyhow ,anywhere..i just blamed myself..
we didn't see each other almost one year,something that is can't chat through phone ,through msn..

BUt after one year,before i was going to this gathering,i decided to tell u all,bcz u all r my friends.
now i 'm thinking whether it is too late to tell u all?should i tell the truth?

i'm a person,who will say out something when i 'm sure ,i' m confirm..
after one year,when i was saying out,i never expected that it was like that..
it was hard to controlling my tears at that moment..i was trying ,but it was flowing out from my eye's corner..

some of U 're supporting me,some of u' re hating me..
But now i 'm feeling happy,bcoz no more secret between U and me .
i 'm free..
although saying out the truth was making me suffering in it,but i already opened my heart n telling all of U about me..
now is depend on U,whether u want to accept the truth or not..
actually it just a small thing, but i 'm over caring about ppl's view on me.

sometime, u don't know what U had said was hurting me DEEPly..
but i didn't blame U,i just hoped that everything can start over again and forget it.
U r not me,u don't understand my feeling at that moment, what u had said myb ll affect the way that i look at myself..

Thank ♥ AJ and ♥ william,i never expect that 3 of us can sit down together and have a good chat..
feeling weird but it is a nice experiences..

from that incident until now,i dunoe hw to make myself calm down,how to make my mood turn bck..

my mood was from the highest jump down to the lowest...just a few second.

everytime ,accidentally thk bck it,my tears' ll automatic drop out..

dunoe hw to stop it,just hoped♥ time will make me forget all the things..

sometime,i m thinking that if i won't say it out,ntg ll happen,all ll be the same..

telling out the truth only ll make me feel even worst..

what shall i do now?

sitting there and do nothing..sleeping ,i thk is the way to make me happier..

anyway thz to those ppl who is concerning abt me.thz U so much!

♥ ~wanring-♥