I love you when you are loving me too.I ♥ simple person,simple things and simple LOve.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

1st time CPR




Miracle does happen in our life, and i saw the miracle happen in front of my eyes, he actually survived after he collapsed, what a great news for everyone.

The person was intubated immediately, chest compression was performed continuously and multiple drugs were given .His ECG started to change from asystole, slowly became Ventricular tachycardia, and finally became sinus tachycardia. It's very fun and excited when u could able to see a dead person realive.

Last 2 days of 2010, at least i got that chance to experience how perform chest compression on a real person , who was him, eventually he survived. This was my first new thing that i learnt in Emergency department,i 'm glad that i didn't waste up my ED posting.

I like this kinda satisfaction, the feeling of saving ppl's life is so great! although i 'm just a novice, i can't help that much, but at least i'm putting my effort to learn every single little thing.

The feeling of performing Chest compression on a real person is very different with manikin, when u are pressing harder, u can actually hear cracking sound from patient's chest. i was scared what if i break the patient's ribs and puncture the heart, i might be sued by his relatives.

Counting down for last two days of 2010, gonna say HELLO to 2011~ What 's my new year 's resolution? i'm still thinking.

Nice experience! =) i LOVE it~

Saturday, December 25, 2010

X'mas Eve @ 2010









X'mas eve, i promised to go Yanrui's church , but it turn out, i didn't join with her as i wanted to bath 1st before going out with them. So sorryyy yanrui, i just don't want to bring the "germs" celebrate X'mas along with me.

We went to HOLLAND village to have our dinner together, counting down the coming of Santa Claus... Sound a bit stupid ~ Anyway, it was so touching that could enjoy with my dinner with them, my heart felt warm throughout the whole night.

the feeling of mixing around with friends is awesome and wonderful! i LOVE it so muchh!

Looking forward for our next gathering.

Ah bao happy staying with him~AH max!

Friday, December 24, 2010

i can't wait to see u

i can't wait to see u , mr heng!
i LOVE you.

gonna to have my x'mas eve dinner with my lovely sis later, jeannette, yanrui and ah bao..
HOLLAND village, here i come.yummy yummyy






Wednesday, December 22, 2010

冬至快乐 ♥ 我没有汤圆吃




人在异乡,虽然不大喜欢吃汤圆因为没什么味道,但冬至就该吃汤圆阿。
今年,没汤圆, so pathetic.~

looking forward to X'mas and new year.

can't wait to see my dearest friendss...
let's have dinner together, let's have fun, let's countdown together ~~~







Monday, December 13, 2010

my dearest big sisters~



Xueying and i
Meiyee and i



Xueying and meiyee both of them just like my BIG sisters, taking care of me since FORM 1. They are one year older than me, and i always mixed around with them when i was studying in SMKST and until they graduated .I remembered that during Form 3, every morning , i went to their class waiting for the lvl 2's door to open, i sat down there, studying and chatting with them.

Time flies like an arrow, we didn't meet up each others for so long time already. Last Thursday, we met each other at CITY SQUARE, xue ying is having term break and mei yee was having off day. WE were non stop chatting at MCD for few hours , gossiping and laughing together. I like this kinda feeling, it was great!!!

Hope to see you girl soon!! my BIG SIS!




Wednesday, December 8, 2010


i just want to sit down.
think something that i should think, do something that i should do.
Eventhough my heart agreed to do so, but my body doesn't allow me to do.
i 'm tired, no matter how many hours i rest and sleep, it ll never be enough for me.
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i 'm so depressed right now, if u re having depression, why i can't?
i 'm living in a stressful environment.
I can't believe next time, if i pass up as a staff nurse, how can i nurse 12 patient alone?
definitely, i ll go crazy.
although i 'm having my PRCP ( last posting ),i could feel the stress.
yesterday,i saw the doctor was arguing with my preceptor.
Doctor scolded her why nurses didn't read the orders in case note,my preceptor explained that the doctor should write in both case note and clinical chart too, normally nurses only read the order inside the clinical chart, doctor seemed very unhappy after hearing that.
OMG, please DOCTOR, can u please make nurses' work easier?
your hand writing should be amended become neat and tidy, your order should be reasonable and applicable.
DOn't just know how to give order and forget how the nurses do .
BE a GOOD doctor please!!



Monday, December 6, 2010

Mummy's birthday 5.12.2010




My mum 55th birthday, happy birthday to my dearest MUM! thank for nurturing me up~ Admittedly, it wasn't a perfect birthday celebration, because someone was missing.





We went to a restaurant that near by KULAI to enjoy our dinner, but it made me so disappointed because the dishes over there weren't nice . I have been there before, and the taste of the food was totally different with previous one i ate. The service was SUX too. i shouldn't complaint too much, there won't be 2nd time going there again.







he's my 3rd brother, just came back from KL.Yesterday, i was bringing him to SG, he has never been there for so long time.



Monday, November 29, 2010

Gerontology




Working is geriatric ward , i have to be more patient. I knew that i lack of patience, but i have to hold my temper while taking care of those patients who have dementia or confusion. Sometime, we can't blame them, because their cognitive status are being compromised when they're getting older.Actually, they don't know what they are doing and talking about, even as we explain something to them , they also can't understand. I do feel helpless, because i have to look after them while they are standing or walking out from bed, meanwhile, i have to update my chart and nursing other patients.In fact, there are not enough of nurses in the ward, can you believe one staff nurse with one assistant nurse have to nurse 12 patients for 2 cubicles? it is a bit ridiculous, but we have no choice, because it is really lack of staff. 

Just want to share with you guys a note which i found it in facebook and was written by a doctor, he actually was using the 3rd person 's view in viewing our nurses. Nurse is not your maid, please learn to appreciate what they have done, and learn to understand what they are busy for.


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If I was an excellent Singaporean Nurse, I would be working in Australia.

In fact, many of our top nursing graduates, best staff nurses and experienced specialist nurses already are.

Why is that? Do they not want to help the uncles and aunties who need them? The uncles and aunties who watched them grow up, their friends, relatives and community? Do they really long to get newly accustomed to people with blond hair, English with an accent, and undertones of racism? Or are they 'quitters', are they 'mee siam, mai hum'?

I say they are real nurses. Nurses who do not wish to be treated like maids.

Yesterday I walked out to the P3 waiting area and was greeted by an auntie who shrieked :"Missieee!!! Milo one cup!!!" Personally, I am much more courteous to the old drinks uncle or the fat and indecently exposed Tiger auntie I usually get my Milo from.

Apart from serving Milo, nurses here are expected to clean and clear, and wait on patients' and family members' every need. They are also expected to write lengthy reports in every file and ensure that stray forms containing blood results from 2 months ago are 'noted' and signed. They are prohibited from giving the 'first dose' of IV medications, and deemed incapable of checking the sticker on a packet of blood against a patient's nametag.

A short plane ride to Australia offers a tantalising prospect, where nursing as a profession is well respected and appreciated by the general public. Where nurses play the role of the 'Houseman', as the first line of medical care for their patients. Where nurses make morning rounds, order investigations and prescribe, (let alone serve the first dose of), medications. Where nurses are paid more than twice of what they are being paid here.

Screw the respect, appreciation and professionalism thing, you say. Is it just about the money, then?

Of course it is. Who would work for less? Yet it goes way beyond that. Pay is the most direct gauge of how much the institution you serve appreciates what you do, how much you and your work is valued, in exact dollars and cents. Our public hospitals turn over patients at a much faster rate than most hospitals in the world, and our nursing staff are expected to maid and write reports for all these patients and be paid what they are paid? How much are they worth to you?

Those who prefer stagnation and choose ignorance will argue about greener grass and brighter moons on the other side. But the trend has been set. I have only been working in the medical profession for just over a year and a half, yet I know so many excellent nurses who are leaving/has left in the prime of their careers. Indeed, those who are there find pastures greener, moons brighter, and some never come back.

And right there, you find the brain drain.

The solution? Easy, as always. The ever widening drain is covered over by nurses and allied health workers from China, Phillipines, Myanmar, Vietnam, you name it. Im not so sure myself if Singapore is a multi-racial or rather a multi-national society anymore.

Foreign nurses aren't necessarily bad nurses at all. They are, however, adapting to a brand new environment, sorting out issues of lodging, transport and other miscellany, and last but most definitely not least, speaking a brand new language - English. Language forms the building block for all communication, and the lack thereof often a source of misunderstandings, fustration and anger. Worse still, while a basic grasp of English is required for all our foreign nurses, unfortunately that is not required for our uncles and aunties admitted to hospital - They speak Mandarin, Melayu, Tamil, Hindi, Hokkien, Teochew, Cantonese and Hakka, and when you don't speak the language they are comfortable with, the patient-nurse or patient-doctor bond is broken immediately. These patients are sick, they are in pain and discomfort, and the last thing they need is someone going 'Har?!' at them in an alien tongue. They feel patronised, misunderstood, neglected, and worst of all, hostile. And it doesn't seem so incredible anymore that houseman are often called for 'a patient who is very breathless and gasping', only to find out on arrival at his bedside that all the man wanted was a glass of water.

Teamwork has always been hailed and emphasised in healthcare, and rightly so. Yet teamwork is not forged through MAGNET (what is that really?) seminars with candy floss and balloons. There can be no team if cliques are formed simply by where you come from. There can be no team if some members adopt an 'iron rice bowl' or 'large pot of rice' mentality, always hoping for someone else to get the job done. There can be no team if members don't even understand what each other is saying.

While the 'solution' appears nice and rosy on paper, while we can proudly report healthy numbers and a decent nurse : patient ratio that will achieve JCI and ACGME and whatever not accreditations, it will be prudent to realise that our patients are people, not statistics. Our patients have needs, more so when they are sick, weak and hospitalised than ever. In a hospital setting which is so unfamiliar and daunting, what our patients really need is a listening ear, a comforting touch, and a familiar face.

The Nurse/Doctor to patient bond is something unique to the healthcare professional, something borne from walking in your patient's shoes day in, day out, understanding them, their culture, their needs and concerns. It is an invaluable tool along and even above excellent medical care for making these patients better. It is a bond most precious to those who bother to seek it. And it is a bond that no Engineer or Administrator can ever understand.

Offer our best nurses a challenging work scope and a competitive payday, and no one will leave. Nobody needs Kit Chan to preach to them that 'this is home, SURELY.' to realise that. Nobody really wants to leave their family, friends, and roots behind. And I am certain that nothing is more rewarding to a healthcare professional than the chance to lend a helping hand and touch the lives of all these people around them.

Many of our hardworking nurses who strive for more have completed further studies and advanced diplomas, yet how many of these nurses are still stuck in the general ward writing reports? They deserve so much more. How many of our most experienced nurses find no way out at the end of the line but administrative work as ward Sisters, where their clinical experience are untapped and wasted? They deserve so much more. And our patients deserve so much more from all of them. Retaining our best talents and providing a challenging and clinical work environment will only lead to happier, more competitive nurses who can take on so much more, and the result of which can only be excellence in nursing care.

On the contrary, letting our talents go, then disallowing those who remain to check blood? Thats loser mentality.

Nurses who take on more deserve more, and a deservedly improved pay means better recognition, social standing, and job satisfaction. It is also the most direct way of letting a young talent contemplating leaving know that her work is appreciated and she is needed here for her clinical work, for which she will be duly compensated.

But where is the 'extra' money going to come from? You might ask.

I am a Doctor, I am not familiar with budgets and policies, so I am unable to answer you. I do read, not too long ago, in the papers that all politicians got a pay rise to maintain competitiveness and prevent a brain drain to the private sector, now where did that 'extra' money come from? And when was the last time a healthcare professional got a pay rise to maintain said competitiveness? I have to consult Prof. Soo or Prof. Nambiah on that. I also read, just recently, in the papers that 387 million dollars was reportedly spent on the YOG. Thats almost 10 per cent of the 4.1 billion healthcare budget for the ENTIRE YEAR of 2010. You tell me.

Nurses are not paid so badly that there are no nurses at all. Yet they are not paid nearly well enough to prevent the mass exodus of local talent we witness today. Who suffers? The non English speaking, C class patient in the general ward suffers. Yet it is that very patient, who voted for this Government, who elected the people in charge of the budgets and policies, who effectively drove our best nurses away from caring for him.

What an insult.


Now, back to the very beginning, if I was an excellent Singaporean Doctor...



Saturday, November 20, 2010

Last day of school in CAMPUS.

Last 2nd day in school.






Today, the last day of school!

Three red dots inlcuding :
Red dot 1 : Ah bao
Red dot 2: Yanrui
Red dot 3 : Wanring
I ''ll miss you gals, why 3 of us can't work in the same hospital. arghh!


My lovely P 25 ordered Pizza and had our last class gathering.

Playing with dirty straws.


Wednesday, November 17, 2010

we have been studying together nearly 3 years. I love my classmates, i'll miss u gals and guys!


They are my classmates, we are P 25 !



after photo-shoot, we went to celebrate sharvena birthday at ISLAND CREAMERY.
it was an ice cream birthday cake.



i knew my last day of school is on Friday, 11/3/2011.
After that, i will no longer holding the student pass anymore.
i will not have the student price anymore.
SO sad....
i have 14 weeks clinical attachment to go, God bless me.




Sunday, November 7, 2010

LLC- i had an epic Gunung Ledang , Muar and Malacca trip











This trip made my holiday become meaningful, thank you to every LLC members, especially those who organised it. I enjoyed the trip very much, i like the feeling when spending time with u guys, laughing sound can be heard everywhere , every minute, and it cheered me up.

We went for mountain climbing at Gunung Ledang, remember the story of Puteri Gunung Ledang? 3 hours for going up, and 3 hours for going down. Everyone seemed tired after mendaki gunung ledang, but we fulfill our satisfaction.

After that , we stayed over night at Muar and went out for supper.Next day early morning, we went to Malacca 's town area.

I was not feeling well at the end of the trip, i experienced severe headache and stomachache, but now, i 'm getting better. Thank you for everyone 's concern,a special thank to shiting and yishin taking care of me :)

Hope next time, i' ll be able to make it for any LLC's activity. Tomorrow, i m going back to school for 2 weeks. i am just reluctant to go back.